In that foggy intermediate state between sleep and wake, the dream starts. No. Not a dream.
Unease, a tingle at the base of the skull, finds a spot and waits. The unease creeps along the spine, quick and determined. When it gathers its strength, it transforms itself into fear. The fear is a living thing, which detaches itself, now a beast. The beast has tentacles. Each dreadful tentacle coils and uncoils, nearly touching, not touching. It stays just out of the field of vision. Only detectable by a shift in the air.
The heart squeezes, blood races through constricted vessels. Each breath comes in short, shallow gasps. The eyes slam open. To nothing. Darkness. Solitude.
A gentle breeze sighs through the open window. The cicadas hum. It’s the only noise.
Except for the pounding of the heart. And the crackle of the unquiet mind.
That’s exactly what it feels like. Do you have nightmares? I went through a time when anxiety and thyroid issues were a problem and heart palpitations would wake me up like that. Scary!
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I have the occasional panic attack. I hadn’t had one in quite a while but one hit me Friday night. So I wrote about it. 😬
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They are so scary. Mine are controlled well now once medications were changed. But the night time ones from a sound sleep are hard…
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Yeah, I had a full medical work up, blood work and all is well – it’s just my unquiet mind! 😜
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Hubby used to have them, hasn’t in years, no explanation. Everyone on my side of the family could benefit from taking a Xanax 🙂
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Seriously! It is my lifesaver too! I’m glad I don’t have to resort to it very often!
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🙂
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I love this! ❤️
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Thank you. Not an easy thing to put into words.
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No it’s not but you did a great job! ❤️
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Thank you so much! 😍
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Great writing 🙂
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Thank you, Al!
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😀
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Sounds so much like me waking up with a panic attack. Used to be a prey to that for a long time, but happy to say those occurrences have now diminished to almost nil! 😀
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That’s wonderful Rashmi. I’m glad you’ve nearly conquered it. It doesn’t happen to me too often anymore either, thankfully!
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I have been here, too. After a billion tests, no I do not have a heart condition or any other ailment I suspected. Just my effed up head! It doesn’t happen often but when it does… 😧
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Exactly!
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This gave me the chills, Meg. Beautifully written! Phew 🙂
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Thank you so much!
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Love this chilling write. Would love to see more.
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Thanks, Drew! I’m sure there’s more in my arsenal. It’ll eventually find its way out. 😳
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Great.
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Powerful! And I hate that feeling
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Ugh, I know. Helpless, till it passes. Thank you!
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Classic nightmare!
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